I'M BACK!!!

Unfortunately, I was hospitalized this week. I had written a previous blog entry entitled "Living in Fear". Well, what I feared in that entry became a reality last Thursday morning. The fear and the panic were all too real. And once again I find myself living in fear.......more than before. The fear to go on to the next moment, to hope that another "attack" will not happen with the next breath I take.

Added to my fears, is the element of my quality of life. I feel that much of it has been taken from me. I no longer have the courage to look ahead to something planned in in the future. I no longer find myself even wanting to participate in anything that may take me more than a few minutes to get an ambulance. In 2 weeks I am supposed to go on a boat ride through the Erie Canal locks. I don't think so!!!!! There would be no way they could get me to shore for an ambulance in time.

We all take our health for granted unless we start to lose it. Of all the things in the world, at this point, I feel that good health is of the utmost importance. We make decisions in our lives that affect us in years to come. healthwise and otherwise. We seldom think of the future, long-term consequences when we make choices when we are young. I chose to start smoking. I even quit and felt that by quitting I had erased all the consequences. I was wrong. When I smoked, I was preparing my lungs for future problems such as COPD, and didn't even realize it.

How foolish we are when we are young and think we have a whole life time ahead of us or that we are indestructable. We do not and are not. Even is we face longevity as a reality, our life time-prior choices will overpower that and will rob us of that if we make the wrong ones. This is not an entry to stop smoking (although that would be a good idea). Most of my readers are older and it is too late to reverse the damage already done. This entry is just a reality of the fact that we must all pay for our past decisions in one way or another. As the saying goes, "Youth is wasted on the young". We know no better when we are young even though we think of ourselves as being wise. Well to quote Cher, "If I could turn back time"!!

Answer to last trivia question: What 1960 movie featured this line “A boy’s best friend is his mother.”? Psycho
Today's trivia question: What was known as the Telephone Box Squash?
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